Sakit yang Menjalar ke Paru-paru

Perasaan saya hari ini agak tenang. Apa saya sudah merelakan semua yang terjadi dan memilih menikmatinya?
Ah, tentu saja belum. Saya ga begitu menerima kenyataan, tapi bukan berarti hari ini saya ga merasa agak tenang ya? Emosi saya bisa redup seiring jalannya waktu ko.

Tapi telepon dia jam 5 sore ini bikin saya agak bergetar, meski gak sampe nangis. (Saya sendiri aneh kenapa saya ga nangis. Biasanya begitu hal semacam ini terjadi saya minimal nangis meski bentar atau air matanya dikit. Apa ini artinya saya sudah lebih kuat? Atau saya lebih bebal? Atau saya sudah tidak peka lagi hatinya? Saya sendiri engga tau.)

Kalo bicara sakit, ya jelas sakit. Rasanya seperti bener-bener punya paru-paru. Rasa sakit itu merambat di paru-paru saya, jadi keberadaan si paru-paru saya ini bener-bener kerasa.

Apa nanti saya bisa sembuh? Apa nanti Allah akan memberi saya pengganti? Atau Allah mengembalikan yang saya miliki sebelum telpon ini?

Saya sama sekali gagal menerawang masa depan. Ga ada petunjuk satupun.

Mungkin Karena Sudah Terlalu Lama

Mungkin karena sudah terlalu lama cerita tak diperlihatkan pada dunia,

mungkin karena sudah terlalu lama yang sebenarnya itu disimpan di balik dada,

mungkin karena sudah terlalu lama, jangan ditahan lagi ya?

:

tidak ada yang paling mengenal ceritanya

kecuali Tuhan, dia dan aku.

Tiba-tiba saya kangen, pada blog saya. Saya tahu banyak sarang laba-laba di sini. Tapi sarang laba-laba selalu bisa dibersihkan kan? Ayo ambil kemoceng dan mulai posting lagi.
:))

Apologi dan Cerita Tentang PRD

Hallo, fellows! :D 

Sore yang asyik setelah melewati siang yang panas. Beberapa menit yang lalu saya ada di balkon, sama se-mug penuh teh pahit hangat, duduk di kursi bambu yang warnanya udah ga cantik lagi diserap cuaca dan membayangkan dia--si canubi (´⌣`ʃƪ)  tentang kenapa dia mirip bala-bala, kenapa dia bisa tau hampir segala hal yang saya ingin tau, tentang kenapa dia selalu punya kejutan aneh-aneh yang menyenangkan, tentang kenapa bisa ada bunga matahari di kedua matanya, ya.. Begitulah. Canubi ga pernah berhenti jadi pertanyaan sengit selama ini.
Jadi aja bicarain canubi teruus >,< Ah!

By the way, fellows, siang tadi, saya membunuh waktu di PRD. FYI, PRD itu ruang perpustakaan referensi dosen. Berdasarkan namanya, ruangan perpustakaan ini memang dibikin untuk referensi dosen. Dengan kata lain, mahasiswa ya ga berhak ada di sana.

Tapi nyatanya banyak mahasiswa yang nyari tugas disana. Mulanya, untuk saya, adanya mahasiswa di PRD itu rada kontroversial juga mengingat nilai guna dari itu perpus yang diperuntukan untuk dosen. Lucunya, pengurus

A Menu for You and I Someday

I'm in love with imagining. I love to visualize my dreams on my mind.

I love to see everything I can't see with my eyes.

I love to close my eyes in the middle of crowded and feel the silence.

I love to be sink around the future and you..

My imagination today brings me to the menu when we have already married, someday.

I imagine, for every weekdays you and I will be so busy as usual. Everythings we do will be in hurry.

I'll tidy up my veil in hurry, and tidy up your tie with the same way too.

We'll have no time to sit and praise each other.

Traffic and tasks can not waiting for us.

That's mean we don't have time to breakfast and just takin' this in hurry.

I imagine, you and I will be have to saving our money to renovate our home.

To make it happens, you'll need to take a lunch box for lunch, so do with me.

 But unfortunately, because we're always in hurry,
 I just bring you and I this..

And at the nite you and I have already arrived home,

we'll so tired and forget to have a dinner.

At the midnite you wake up and feelin' so hungry. You'll go downstairs to open the refrigerator, 

but you've forgot something, that we don't have a refrigerator yet.

You'll back upstairs and find me sleep tightly.

And you'll watching me sleep with this emoticon...

Pic here takin' by me, 1st @Al-jamiah, 2nd @Ma Hum and 3th from emoticonally face.

"We will not grow old, darl.."

I have one catchy song to you. This's awesome. :)

Just replay it more than 20th, and you'll feel the sense :D

 

Lenka - We Will Not Grow Old

You and me will be lying side by side - Forever forever
Underneath this adolescent sky - Together together
And you will hold my heart inside your hand
And You'll be the one, the one to tell me

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go, to get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

You made me swear that our hearts will never die - No never, no never
Cause no one seems to believe that we can fly - Forget them, forget them
Oh, you told me

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go, to get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

Oh, how could we know that day, it came with age
That oh, the feeling would fade... 

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go, to get there

We'll get there

But oh, if there's one thing that we know

It's that we will not grow old

Carl and Ellie Fredericksen from the film UP (2009)

IM MAD OF THIS SONG and attributed this to you who I mad for too. :p

Wanna see a great video of this song? I found it on youtube, just click here.

The models of that video is Carl and Ellie, a Pixar characters on UP Movie. I really cried when watch that movie. It had a good touchy love story. :)